Thursday, April 8, 2010

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28.01.2010

mak kol mse 2 aq kt uptown bru nak beli mkanan..mak ckp yg ayah nk kne operate pagi esk..aq t'kejut sgt smpai aq xambk lauk pn..ps2 farah soh aq ambk lauk..then pas byr trus msk blik kms2..naik bas uitm kua g bnda u..tgk bas de kol 3.30ptg..ddk la c2 sorg2 tggu bas..bas kl b'hnti ..mlm dah mse 2..k.tasha n adik dye jmpt aq kt pudu ps2 naik LRT g cheras..smpai c2 g mkn jp smbil tggu abg n adk smpai dr melaka..kol 10.30 mlm smpai hsptl..kteorg naik gilir2..naik ats jmpe ayh..nmpk ayh cm bece jew..chat cme dmm bece..ayh xpsn ape2 pn..aq smpaikn slm mbe kt ayh..2 yg last aq ckp n ayh..kjp jew tgk ayh cz dktor soh ayh rht..nk blk kteorg slm n cium ayh..

29.01.2010

kteorg x g pn tgk ayh nk msk dwn bdh cz mlm td blk lewat smua dah ltih..mak pn ckp yg kteorg xyh g..yg g pn xsmpt nk tgk ayh cz dktor mskkn ayh awl..pg 2 kteorg g lwt ckit hsptl..ayh spttnye kua dwn bdh kol 10 lbh..tp pkul 1 lbh ayh bru kua..kteorg dah xddk diam kt hsptl 2..dktor pggl mak soh tgk ayh kt icu..ayh kua dwn bdh trus dimskkn dlm icu..pas bdh 2 mak msk tgk ayh n ayh sdr mse 2..nurse soh mak pggl ayh..ble mak pggl ayh mcm t'kjut..ayh nk cabut smua wyr2 kt bdn ayh..ps2 trus dktor bg ubat tdo kt ayh..lame..dkt 2 mggu ayh xsdr..sdh sgt tgk ayh cm2..ble kua dr icu 2 pas tgk ayh..msti mnglir jew air mata nie..seksa sgt tgk ayh..iktkn hati xnk aq blik u..aq nk tmnkn ayh jew kt hsptl 2..tp mak soh blik..mak ckp nnt law ayh sdr ayh mre x g blaja..

10.02.2010
aq kol mak n mak bgtaw ari 2 ayah de sdr..smua hepy..tp sygnye aq xblh nk jmpe ayh cz aq kt perak mse 2..hmm..

11.02.2010

sehari sblm cuti are cina..ari khmis..mlm 2 tbe2 jew aq mmpi yg ayah dh xde..tp aq wt xtaw jew n mmpi 2..org ckp law mmpi org 2 mnggl mknenye org 2 pnjg umo..aq pn pke pstf..

12.02.2010

ari jumaat..aq blik ari nie..smpai2 dah tghari..abg long yg yg lain jmput n trus g hsptl..sblum naik nk g kt mak..abg long soh mkn dlu..ciap jew mkn k.long soh naik atas dlu sorg cz xley naik rmai agpn mse 2 bkn wk2 mlwt..just ckp n guard 2 nk naik ats tgk ayh kt icu..smpai jew ats aq slm mak n yg lain..xrmai kt ats mse 2..dorg trun g mkn..pas slm mak..mak ckp kt aq yg ayah dah tenat..aq t'kjut sgt mse 2..tp aq wt cm bece jew..mcm xde ape2..aq xnk mak tgk yg aq sdih cz aq xnk tgk mak sdih..kol 5 mse utk mlwt wad icu smpai kol 7 ptg..n aq msk dlm tgk ayah...rmai sgt nk msk jmpe ayh mse 2..hmm..dpt msk kjp jew..mmg msk bece xsmpai 5 mnit pn tgk ayh..mak rsau dah cz adk n abg xsmpai2 ag..dorg smpai ble dah abis wk2 mlwt tp mntk jgk cz ckp dr jauh..yela abg dr johor..adik dr melaka..jln plk jam ari 2..mne x lmbt smpai..pas mgrb..aq ddk kt lua 2 pas solat..mak kt dlm surau ag..tbe2 dktor dtg n ckp 'ready for the worse'..hmm..sdh sgt..aq msk dlm surau bgtaw mak..pas aq bgtaw mak trus lemah..nk bgn pn xlarat t'pkse pggl abg tlg angkt mak..hnye allah jew taw mcm ne prsn kteorg mse 2..smua dah ngis2..kol mksdre n ps2 dorg dtg tmnkn kteorg..wt first time nye aq tgk abg aq mngis..mrh mata dye..mgkin dah lme dye thn..mlm 2 smua tdo kt hsptl..ade yg tdo dlm surau n kt lua jew..sjuk sgt..aq tdo dlm surau..aq bgn kol 5 lbh..kluar tgk mak tdo kt lua..kaki mak pucat..sjuk kt lua..aq lpe nk soh mak tdo kt dlm surau cz aq tdo dlu dah..ps2 aq ddk lua smpai dorg smua bgn sbuh..xlme pas aq bgn tgk abg bgn kua dr surau..

13.02.2010

pg 2 dlm kol 7 pg..aq, abg,adik n k.tasha blk uma makabah jp..mak soh blik mndi ps2 trus dtg hsptl blk..smpai jew uma makabh..xsmpt kteorg nk rht n mndi pn mak dah kol mkwe..aq dgr suara mak ngis2..aq dah dpt agk pe..makwe ckp yg dktor dah pggl smua kluarga msk tgk ayah..mknenye hantar ayah utk pergi slme-lmenye..aq xb'sdia pn nk hadapi smua 2..aq kuatkn smngt aq hnye utk fmlyku..kol 8 kteorg smpai hsptl..ssh btl nk msk icu 2..ade nurse 2 soh kteorg gilir2..gle ape nurse 2..ayh kteorg dah nk g blh dye soh tgk gilir2..dorg xphm ape..xpe..kteorg pns dah..tp msh sbr..xlme ps2 bru kteorg msk..dah rmai kt dlm mse 2..gilir2 dorg ajar ayh mngcp..smua dah ngis..dkt kol 10 pg..nfs ayh mle x stbl..kjp naik n trun..mse 2 aq taw yg aq akn khlgn org yg aq syg..kaki ayh n tgn dah pucat..adik tnye aq npe tnye ayh keras..aq ckp jgn usik sgt nnt ayah skit..aq pgg kaki n tgn ayh..lame aq pgg..kol 10.20pg..ayh pergi mngglkn kteorg smua wt slme-lmenye..ayh pergi n tenang n matanye xde spe yg ttpkn..t'tutup sndri..adik trus lmbik ble ayh dah xde..abg yo tlg angkt adik kua icu 2..kteorg kua..yg lain cbuk urskn ursn nk bw blk jnzah..xlme pas2 dktor pggl blik kteorg msk icu 2..aq msk n tgk ayah dah pn dbaluti dgn kain putih..mak tgk2 kjp jew mgkin mak xsggp tgk ayh dlm keadaan cm 2..aq pndg lame wjh ayh n sempat cium ayh 3 kli sblm ayh dkbumikn..aq cm xcye smua nie t'jdi..sklip mata aq tlh khlgn insan b'nma ayh..ayh dkbmikn d tmerloh,pahang..


ayah..wlpn kak xpnh ckp yg kak sygkn ayh..tp sbnrnye kak amat sygkn ayah..mse ayh kt icu kak xckp septh pn n ayh..kak just pgg tgn n kaki ayh..kak xsggp nk ckp n ayh..kak xnk ayh taw yg kak sdih sgt ble tgk kdaan ayah cm 2..kak relakn ayah g drpd ayh t'sksa d dunia nie..kak akn sntiasa doakn utk ayh hgga akhr hyt kak..n kak akn jg mak elok2..kak xnk tgk mak sdh pn..mak slalu xchat n asyk ngis jew pas ayh g..law blh dah lme kak tmnkn kak kt uma 2..tp..xblh..sksa sgt rse..kak akn kuatkn smgt kak hnye utk fmly kte..sygnye ayh xsmpt nk tgk abg kwin bln 6 nie..hmm..xde dah org first time ajar kak msk sardin n tlg mskkn sardin mse mak xde kt uma..xde dah org yg blh bgnkn kak dr tdo dgn hnye bau mnyk wnginye..smua 2 tggl kngan yg akn di ingti wt slme-lmenye...
smga rohmu tng d sne n dtmptkn d klgn org2 yg b'iman..amin..al-fatihah...

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